#MyTruths

Today is the official day of the segment #mytruths. I will post here and on Twitter until the new year so if you want to contribute follow me @honeyki1 or comment here.

I will not fall for anything or anyone less than my worth. #mytruths

Little Lives

Today, December 14, 2012, 20 children and 8 adults passed today. A gunman entered the school and went on a shooting spree killing the little lives that was cut short. I do not understand the logic of what was going on in the mind of the gunman. What was he thinking? Why did this happened? How could this have been prevented? I want to know what could have possessed him to go and kill innocent children. 

This has hit me beyond anyone could have imagine. As a parent of a five year old boy, I can feel the hurt of those who are affected are going through. Please if you are parent of a child/children take the time to hug, kiss, and tell them that you love them. Always make sure you tell your children that you love them as you never know the last time you will those little faces. 

My Truths

Starting next week until the new year I will post a segment I called "My Truths". "My Truths" is the lessons and experience I learned this past that I will share with you. "My Truths" will help each of you move forward into the new year.
Follow me on Twitter @honeyki1 with the hashtag #mytruths and let me know what's the lessons you learned and what will you change.

Why Hate?

This has been one of the most racially charge election I have witnessed since I was able to vote 10 years ago. I don't understand the reason of such hate. Why does a color of someone's skin make a person hate them?

I did not vote for President Obama because of the color of his skin, I voted for him because I know he can effectively run this country. By all means, I do not agree with some of his policies but he has done good work in the last four years he has been in office.

From reading comments from other websites, racism is alive and well. The comments I have seen are shocking calling him everything but a child of God. What is the issue? Why hate? I know that the media has portrayed Blacks as ignorant, loud, violence, etc. This is something that WE really need to work on. Majority of us are not even like that. We are hardworking, intelligent, loving, dedicated group of people. We make a way for our families like a White family does for theirs. But it always come back to the color of our skin. Know the person before you judge.

We saw history last night. President Obama won a second term, the first openly gay woman Senator, and the state of Maryland decided to hold civil ceremonies for gays and lesbians.

To all individuals who are fill with hate, remember this:

You have to answer to someone much higher and He is the one who you should be really afraid of.

"Diary of a black girl" Part 1

I've been thinking lately about my past relationships I've had and common cause why each one ended was my trust issues.

My trust issues run deep and they stemmed from my father's absence in my life. He was there financially but physically.My father and I do not have a relationship and I can count on one hand how many times he has seen my five year old son. It's hurts me that he haven't seen his grandson or has taking the time to find out how great of a child he is.

I really can't say that my "daddy issues" is the cause of my failed relationships. I have to take the blame for not using my five common sense. I knew those men was not even on my level but I let them drag me down to theirs. I was trying to please them and I was losing myself in the process.

As I keep moving on the path of self rediscovery, the lessons I have learned has taught me to take care of the most important person....Me.

Do not pass "GO"

Letting go is the hardest part of everyone's lives. Whether it's a job, friends, or an (you guess it) relationship.

Why is it so hard to let go of the person who's doing you wrong. Giving additional stress and drama that you don't need. The person who being a total A-HOLE.

I tell you that it's because you don't want to ALONE. That was the hardest part to do was to write that word "alone".That word is a major condition no one want to be in. In my past relationship, I didn't want to let go because of the fear of being alone. While all of my sisterfriends were happy with their respected relationship, I settled for an relationship that was emotionally draining. He sucked the life out of me. I don't have a clue why I let him. I stuck it out because I didn't know any better and because I believe he would've change. Of course he didn't, he was and still is the same A-Hole today.

When I did let go, I cried for weeks because I was alone. I had support from my sisterfriends but that support wasn't enough to break the feeling of . Even though time has passed, I don't regret the time to self evaluate myself and my issues.

If anyone of you all are having trouble letting go, I say this "Life is too damn short to be unhappy".

What's your passion?

Allow me to introduce myself..

My name is honeyki. I'm a twenty something year old chick with a handsome five year old son who has no idea what to do with her life. That's right, no idea.

Over the weekend one of my besties and I were discussing what was catching up on each other lives. She is a newlywed on a beautiful journey to inner peace and well I'm on my way to get some delicious to eat lol.

We were on the subject of finding the meaning of our lives and when the topic of passion came up. As we were in the midst of conversation, I wondered what was my passion. I'm walking around on this Earth not knowing what I'm going to do with my life. I've asked God everyday to guide on my path but my hard headed self probably not seeing a thing.

I wake up everyday at same time with same routine and I'm tired of that. I'm tired of not knowing my full potential, tired of working a 9-5 job that's not really paying the bills, and tired of being....well..tired.

I know you are thinking that I shouldn't complain because I have a job and I may be worst off but to me being my worst is not knowing who I am and what I can accomplish.

I've always wanted to write a blog but never really knew how to write one. I know I needed a topic and mostly every blog on the internet now is basically about natural hair, weight loss, financial support and etc.

I know nothing about that. I'm in my transitioning phase to natural hair (that's another story), I'm in between my weight loss (that's another story), and I'm the wrong one to discussing anything financial (that's another two stories). My blog is basically me "imperfection personified". I'm giving you the true flawed me. I'm not a writer or journalist, I'm just a person who looking for real me who knows her passion.